Dear Friends,
I am on the road again, hence the note on the door to help yourself. Today I am in Brentwood in the HGDiTV studios again. Today we’re working with Allison Worthington Mrs. Fussypants of Mrs. Fussypants.com Alli is the mom of five, stepmom of one, and is the owner of BlissfullyDomestic.com and Mrs.Fussypants.com We’re cooking up programming for HGDiTV to continue Blissfully Domestic’s stellar work on finding good things for women. How fun to have Alli’s character Mrs. Fussypants on the sets, she’s SO funny!
My daughter is with me today, while my son is at football practice and college man is home working. Dh joins me tonight in Brentwood and we work on taping for our ministry tomorrow morning then head home.
God has been whispering loudly again to me, when I get tired, when I get overwhelmed to “just do the next thing” and then rely on Him. Its working but I still get so overwhelmed managing family, home, work, and life.
The children are home for 2 weeks then return for 2 more weeks with their natural dad and stepmom in another state. Its been a new time for us as a blended family, to grow as their natural father’s new family has expanded with his marriage and they suddenly have a scad of new aunts, uncles, and a new set of step grandparents. I am thankful they are accepted….but even as much as I believe there is plenty of love for all of us, its hard to find myself being compared and measured by complete strangers to me (the new family and friends) and usually not in the kindest of ways. Of course, they are thrilled with the new groom (I was too, why would I have married him if I hadn’t of been) But our marriage ended long ago. I know its just human nature, but my gosh, I have been mom their whole life, I am willing to accept their stepmom as part of their life, but do people have to always try to make it a competition. We are so different (I’m 44, she’s 28, I own my own business, she is a paramedic I have reared 4 children, these are her first stepchildren) and she has value for their life as I do. I want them to without guilt love and spend time with us all. I want to uphold and honor their father and his wife as I would hope he would honor and uphold Les.
My heart is still very sad for my friend whose husband ended his life this week in Texas. She and their two children are so shocked as we all were, my heart is even more saddened that I cannot be there for the funeral tomorrow. I will find her next week when I am in Texas though.
God is God and we are not….help others find God through your heart.
Another fresh day, and I am so focused on how much there is to be thankful for. It is still a sad sad time for our friend in another state as she experienced her husband’s choice to end his life. How much my heart aches for her and their children and extended family. Once again it teaches me how very precious life is and how masks are often simply that…covers for what is truly happening in one’s heart.
Today is a Mom day, and I am so excited to be working at home and enjoying my children. It seems the summer has gone simply away as its almost time for school to start again. It seems I turn around and our children are grown!
My weight loss is still happening. I am now ready to begin exercising too to help tone and change what is definately needing toning! I have for so long avoided working out, I am simply ignorant of what to do!!!
God is God and I am still ever amazed at all He is doing in my life. What a hard, yet joyful time it has been to know I can count on Him each part of the day!
Things I am thankful for today:
1. The Father in heaven who thinks I am enough, just as I am, imperfections and all.
2. The ability to forgive and be forgiven of my mistakes and others’ mistakes.
3. Waking up healthy, able, and in a country that allows me to think my own thoughts out loud.
4. For friends who notice when I am under water and need loving on.
5. For business alliances who are truly friends as well. (Jenn Fowler, Karen Rabbitt, Thelma Wells Alli Worthington)
6. For opportunities to work with great people, ministeries, and personalities.
7. For Rachel Anne Ridge’s Home Sanctuary, for I need all the small steps I can find!
8. For children to love and who love me, for extended family.
9. For learning and the ability to learn new things.
10. For beauty that our Father in heaven has made for us, through us, and with us.
Somedays I am simply not a very well done person. Today I have been on a pity party, right up to two phone calls. One from a long ago friend who let me know a close friend had just committed suicide in the past few hours, another friend then called who has found out that life is changing and never to return to what she experienced yesterday.
Thankfulness is indeed a state of mind. When we choose to focus on that which is not Godly, that which does not matter in the big picture of God’s kingdom, the devil helps eggs us on to allow things and ideas take on value and importance that most likely have NO value in God’s kingdom.
I am determined today, to stop, be intentional about my thankfulness and be more aware and merciful to those around me who need God’s love shown to them towards them from me. We truly are the Jesus people see…..who else will choose with me today to stop, praise God, and wait for His next whispering….
it matters…..loving others and letting them know they are loved matter, no matter what they are facing, no matter what they have succeeded or failed at….they are worth mattering to you!
I pray tonight that my long time friend found peace tonight in Jesus ‘ arms. I cannot imagine how hard it was to truly believe that his life was not worth living, he was such a special person….the outward mask was that life was not only going well, but he was on top of the world. How sad for his family, how sad for his mama…how sad for all of us that we couldn’t reach him or help him find God’s mercy and grace for whatever it was he was facing….
and for my friend who knows this day life will never be the same as yesterday….
I love you….
and God is enough…
and we will love you through this.