Thank you for meeting with us Fridays for Bible Study time together at 8:30 to 9:15. I know it is a commitment to give the time to this intentional time together. It is my hope that we each grow from the experience and affirm just how loving God is in our lives and how we, through loving God, can more deeply love those whom God puts before us.
In the lesson last week we read that all individuals at the core of their being yearn for intimacy and affection. I challenged each of us to reread the verse
Genesis 2:24 “For this shall cause a man shall leave his father and his mother and shall cleave to his wife.
in a new way. To read it as the emotional separation of valuing our relationship with others over the relationship with our husbands. God clearly instructed in that time period for a boy and girl, for really that is what we were when we married, to step across the village, or even sometimes in the same household in those days, but to emotionally separate themselves in their roles as a new husband and wife.
How many times a week do you desire intimacy and affection from your husband? I know for me, I so want Les and my own relationship to be close, yet I often put many things before our marriage, our relationship, our friendship.
Part of the journey for me in learning to love God more, and the awareness the Gift of the Blessing is bringing into my life, is that emotional separation from ANYTHING that keeps me from being the Bride of Christ. I am identifying personal maturity of my emotions as a main culprit in the days that I struggle. You see, if I am not firmly identified as “enough” in my head by God, then nothing much I can do on earth solidifies that concept. Not over work. Not a certain weight. Not any one’s words of praise, nor works. The first step for me is identifying that I didn’t receive the blessing from my father, in fact his words were more of a curse where my “enoughness” was involved. Many of us are wounded that way in one form or another….neglect, abuse, born to wounded parents who wound….
The hope is though that God is God and our fathers on earth were not. God created us, designed us for a purpose, designated us to be his beloved child before we were ever born. Nothing we can do can separate us from the deep love of God as our Father. Stop and think on that a moment. Could anything separate you from loving your child? I know I could ring their necks some days but there is little if anything that would ever separate me from adoring our four children and the many that we’ve loved that were not ours through teaching, borrowing and engaging.
Perhaps this week, as we prepare for Friday again, let’s see our past, our emotions, our woundedness, our not-enoughness as what we leave behind as we marry our relationship to Christ in new ways. He deemed us enough to die for, to heal on the cross, to absolve us from any sin we have committed or will commit. He simply wants relationship with us and to love us. I don’t know about you, but when my love cup is filled by the presence of God, when I invite the Holy Spirit to lead and guide me, the past becomes a distant and deflated power and the present becomes a beautiful place to be regardless of what I am facing, God’s peace and provision is there.
Love you all,